On November 9th at 2:30 am I awoke with a jolt as if slapped by an
announcement that things had gone badly on Election Day. I told myself it was just a nightmare, but upon arising at
5:00 am, I like so many others was devastated by the reality. The feeling could only be compared to that horrible emptiness
experienced when one loses a beloved pet and must accept that things will never be the same. Ironically, my daughter
expressed that very emotion. She and I are alike in some ways-- not many, but a few, one of which is that we are each
Someone once said that only children spend their entire lives learning to be alone
and that is true. Mine was not a happy childhood (I hope my daughter's was better...), but we ‘onlys' find our
unique paths to peace. For me it has always been Nature, animals and art. Now, at this late stage in my life I
find these same elements are bringing peace and tranquility--so long as I physically restrict the rest of the angry world.
As a single woman living alone on an old farm, I can do this and make no apologies for my choice.
I watch no more ‘news' on the telly, listen to no more NPR talk shows in the
truck, and refuse to interact with the whiners or (worse still) the pompous goons who now feel entitled to vent their ugliness
at the pool where I swim. I just swim as if my life depends upon it, for in some ways it does. I listen to more
classical music and read books about and by people I admire and find them excellent company. The dogs and I spend a
lot more time in the woods or in the gardens and I've again taken up sketching my sleeping cats or patient model Tess although
the current efforts are a bit disappointing.
know now that I can't change the world (although I used to believe that I could), but I can and have changed the bit of the
world I occupy and this is making all the difference. John Wesley said, "Do all the good you can by all the means
you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can to all the people you can."
This is good advice anytime, but especially now. I'm focused on only what brings me peace and will help others find
their peace by removing myself from their world.